my inner-door

2007-02-10T21:27:00.000-08:00

khlj

2006-11-09T20:37:00.000-08:00

now i m still in the computor lab in schoool,facing the com.All around me are sounds of ppl typing,beautiful music,and the bored me.although nothing in particular to blog,but i think i can say about my surroundings.It was like that since drama has changed our place to com lab.haiz..

2006-11-07T20:29:00.000-08:00

Now in drama
again only one word-sianz~
imgine almost everyday come for SEVEN hours and do almost the same thing
is not that i hate comin for cca
is jus that i am too tired of the all the practices
i can get tired u know
but yet i can learn a lot of things here
although i can slack(thats why i can have time to blog now)
but i rather to have more trainings and i can learn more
i just hate the feeling of being bored
i want to do my holiday assignments
i want to study
i want to improve
i want to become a more outstanding person'
but all the wants i have now seemed to be a real challenge
no mood
no time
no drive
no determination
just having the urge to watch tv everyday
be in front of the computer for ten hours
listen to songs for the whole day
jus like now in drama
using the com for so long
yesterday i played sudoku for dunno how many times
nowi am feeling that i am a sloth
not using my brain as often
becomin more and more lazy
haiz.....
although my parents never nagged at me to study
but i wanted to
but just no drive
can't get myself going
maybe i can never improve like that?
should be contented that i never deprove
getting first would never ever be me
maybe i should to resign to fate
but after sayin so much
is only i myself to blame

2006-11-02T02:54:00.000-08:00

went to drama today
10am to 5pm-sianz~
cause now i in production so we would be in charge of editing the videos
huever his name is said that we need to edit 25 videos in 2 weeks
IS A LOT
we like edit a 10 sec video already took us like an hour
and those videos are at least 30 secs(if i nvr rmb wrongly)
so we die lah!
how i wish i can PON cca
but at least i can pon 4 sessions and i would be having a whale of time at beijing.Haha
too bad monday dont have session.But who cares
During break that time,i played cheat with jean,ching yee,dom and ltr joel oso joined in
play two games and i actually won both of games easily
suprised by my good luck
i like play 10 times cheat and i can only win 1 time
and today i won both.
Maybe thats why i got out of my sleepy state at the ltr part of the day
i knnow i am gloating
LoL
Looking forward to my trip to beijing
13th to 17th of Nov~
can skip 4 sessions of cca
yay!

2006-10-31T20:45:00.000-08:00

Sianz...Holidays have started and now i am lazing around.Those teachers gave us homework to do but i just can't make myself to do them.Book reviews...they are such an headache.Newspaper articles?Not really an easier thing either.Zhou1 Ji4 maybe better cause it doesn't require reading.But the sight of those boring papers just puts me off.Dozing off...lying on the table..pushing the paper away...having a strong urge to throw them to my dustbin,haha.I wonder if i carried on this way,would i be able to do well next year?I lost my will to study yet i dare to aim for the top ten at SA1.My results this yeaar really sucked like hell.Thats why i promised myself to strive next year.But in order to do well,i must start preparing now.But i haven't even started doing my homework lahs.I am getting pissed off by myself you know.Once at a point of time,i shouted to myself that i wanted to beat those who once beaten me.I wanted to do better.Although my parents did not reprimand me for my digraceful results,but i wanted more.Maybe i was being too competitive.Then all in my mind now was not studies.It was music,scenes of my favourite korean dramas,and my fanatizes on my trip overseas next week.I somehow lost my focus on studies.

10 Personal goals for myself for 2007:

1)Forcus on my studies.
2)Must go out less often to study.
3)Talk less during lessons(especially when i am such a chatterbox=))
4)Listen to music less often
5)Be online less often
6)Watch less tv(less addictive korean drams i mean!)
7)Read more books instead of comics!
8)Pay 100% attention in class.
9)Stop fantazing on those handsome hunks i have seen on tv
10)Stop thinking about materialistic things

2006-10-30T19:10:00.000-08:00

WTH
went to buy books for 2007 wif my father today.Then i wore home clothes.Although i seemed to hear mrs low say last time that we must wear full uniform,but others also wore yesterday.Then F say that i can't go in.i have to wait there cause i was NOT in full uniform.
Is like don't let me in,say earlier lah.What for ask for my class and even see my booklist.
i am not oblidge to let u see ok?
stupid asshole
U thought u are so clever issit?
Who are you to use that kind of impression on me?
Don't be extra lah.
Still say dunno wad if wanna find lighter,mus search everyone's pocket.
Who are you lah?
CAn you just get of of my sight?

Another thing.
When i came in to school that time,i saw the fire engine and some motocycle at the main gate there.Because i cannot go in,so i sat there.I overheard the security guards x< that 5th floor ,block C.This is where the science labs.Issit physics lab?
Shuld be.Haix..school holidays still come back to sch0ol and play wif fire.Naughty huh!=)

2006-05-02T02:24:00.000-07:00

Haix.....today is so sian,cooping up at at home,hiding under my blanket.So unlucky,if not for my big mouth,i would not have eaten so much oily food during the weekend and now i have stomach flu that i feel so bloated and i almost feel like vomiting until i don't feel like eating anything.Now i have to swallow all the yucky medicines.Eeeee!so bitter and difficult to swallow.But i have no choice ,must get well AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.Now i sort of banned oily foods,meat,instant noodles as i think i may just throw up when i eat it!Although i am feeling very now,but there is something i can look forward to-THERE IS PE TOMMORROW!yay!

2006-04-29T21:45:00.000-07:00

Now is almost one in the afternoon.I had been cooped up at home and i had nothing to do.Haix....nothing much to blog just having the daily routine like bathing,listening to music.Now i suddenly feel like ....
[10 wants this year]
1.get transfered from my school to ??
2.lose at least 5kg of my fats
3.grew to 160cm (if possible)
4.improve in my studies
5.get a new handphone
6.get to go on a holiday to hong kong!
7.more cds
8.more friends
9.have more chance to play games
10.be happier in life!
[10 hates in life]
1.dishonesty
2.people being irresponsible
3.people that disrespect me
4.people that desert their parents
5.people taking advantage of others
6.getting fatter
7.flunk every subject
8.no money!!
9.face all the sian looking teachers
10.life being boring and moody

2006-04-29T05:21:00.000-07:00

Wow today was a really happy but i guess my mom's pocket had a hole already!During lunch,my relatives,my mom and i all went to eat buffet for lunch in a restruant(ok lah maybe it could be counted as posh)and i think we from 11 something eat until about 3 in the afternoon.It took a long time right?For everyone to gorge themselves to death..As the restruant is in a shopping mall,there were lots of shops selling cl0thes,bags and blah blah blah.So my mom bought me the following tihings:
a laced jeans skirt
a mickey mouse T-shirt
a pair of converse sports shoe(hurray!)
a pair of converse ankle sock to go with it
a pink shoe lace from mini
Thats is simply great right?I had not bought anything since the last year and my mom suddenly bought me so much things until i think i have difficulty sleeping tonight.After all the shopping,all my relatives,my mom and me all went to take neo-print in the shop at second floor.As they were like more senior in age(quite old liao),this is their first time takng neo-print,they like don't know what to do.But luckily,all the photos turned out to be quite nice and my cousin is sooooooooooooo cute!Oh i hope that my mom would not be too sad as she really burnt a hole in her pocket!lol!!!

2006-04-28T04:00:00.000-07:00

Oh my god.Today was the home economics practical test!It was so like very 'luan' until i became running here and there like a mad dog.As i was cooking rat tail noodle soup which is called mee tai mak(i bet that most of you don't know),i needed a ladle and lots other equipments and i started cutting the carrot and blah blah blah.After a hard time cutting up all the incredients needed for my dish,my table was alreadly like a big mess.Then i took some onion scalets-i don't know what its name and i stared frying until it was like a bit crispy.So after that,i pour in the incredient and i stir-fried it for a while until........it became like sort of burnt.Oh oooo! So in order to prevent the whole thing become really black in colour,i poured in water immediately.Phew...and i put in the rat tail noodle shortly after.After cooking was completed,i poured out the contents into a bowl and realise......the onions were really burnt!Serious!It was like really black in colour.Deep in me, i thought:Oh shit,like that aisha surely will minus marks lor.So you know what i did?I used the spoon and i scooped up all the black burnt onions .I know i very bad but this will surely make my mark go downhill.But luckily,i don't think she realised that.Then i clean everything and do what i supposed to do lah.Then i saw ^^ like freaking out as her dessert seemed not to turn out very smoothly.So miss aisha gave her extra time to do again and we all gave her moral support!I think its was already around 10.40am when we finished cleaning up all the equipments.You know what we did?As miss aisha was away,she left the results on our practical exam on the table.So we sneaked up and took a small peak at the marksOh great i knew my marks liao but not going to tell lah =).But actually today was not very bad.I had quite a lot of fun in the activities i did.
Urgent wants right now:
Getting the cool converse shoe tommorrow!=)
See wherether can persuade my mum to buy me the super nice bag
Getting better results-especially english!
Losing some weight
Have more time to sleep
Transfer from xinmin to ????sec
Going bowling/swimming/playing batminton/running next monday

2006-04-26T21:36:00.000-07:00

Today i need not go to school as my school has acheived gooooooood O'level results.So my principal wanna give us one day off .Wow thats so "shiok"!I can wake up at ten in the morning and still can sit at the sofa and watch tv.But i haven't finish my art!i don't know what to draw leh.As mine is symetrical,i think it is very very difficult.Then i also do not how to make all the special effects and all that.How??i have been staring at the BLANK PAPER for the past one hour.So i got so fed up and i went online and post this blog.Then ai sent me some jj songs cause i want the songs in hs lastest album.Oh ya speaking of that,I got so happy again.I AM GOING TO JJ'S UPCOMING CONCERT!!!!!!!oh my god!is there anything on earth that is better than this? This my my first time attending a concert you know!But i suddenly remember that i have not practised for the home econs practical test tommorrow.=( Haix...i surely fail...As i did not have any cooking expierience,i surely flunk it.How??Now i have two main problems-
How to draw the art??(feel like shouting)
Tommorrow home econs practical test(going crazy soon)and it is urgent!!
Oh shit!i think i have not got the incredients and the table linen yet leh.Haix..........

2006-04-26T02:36:00.001-07:00

Today during art lesson,i almost went crazy sia.As yu tou was not here in class today(maybe got hand foot mouth disease),a teacher called mr chua came to be yu tou's replacement lor.I think he might as well go and find another job.The people in class were so noisy and rowdy.Then some of the boys still go mix paint with water in put all kinds of digusting things inside.Eeeeeeee!Then he still kept quiet.I think he went to do the maths that was written on the board.That i still can tolerate.Then they still play with water during that time.It is art lesson you know,where paint were all over the place.Unfortunately my friend who was so unlucky that her artwork was like smudged.As she was that sort of people who can cry mooooore easily,her tears started dripping down non-stop.But actually i think there was no need for her to cry lah.She said that she was going to re-do her art piece already so why waste the tears ?Waste of water and body salt.But these people were really too much.Although the chua chua is a pushover,but they still should not behave like that right?Oh ya speaking of the teacher, i think he really too soft liao.Not to mention the 'not scolding'part,but he think it was funny.But this teacher is not the main point.The thing is they were too much.Even they started this today,they also played with water the last time lor!I do not know why i am so suay that i always kana!BAKAS lah!

2006-04-26T02:21:00.000-07:00

Oh this is my second blog ever since..So sad that my blog was ruined by me the last time.I have no idea what i did the last time that i cannot post any entries!Thats a plain disaster.Now finally my new blog is completed!!i am so happy.But i must really really really thank bumble bee for helping me!My blog was now completed was also done with her great help.Remember that last time she also helped me with this.Thanx!