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now i m still in the computor lab in schoool,facing the com.All around me are sounds of ppl typing,beautiful music,and the bored me.although nothing in particular to blog,but i think i can say about my surroundings.It was like that since drama has changed our place to com lab.haiz..

Now in drama
again only one word-sianz~
imgine almost everyday come for SEVEN hours and do almost the same thing
is not that i hate comin for cca
is jus that i am too tired of the all the practices
i can get tired u know
but yet i can learn a lot of things here
although i can slack(thats why i can have time to blog now)
but i rather to have more trainings and i can learn more
i just hate the feeling of being bored
i want to do my holiday assignments
i want to study
i want to improve
i want to become a more outstanding person'
but all the wants i have now seemed to be a real challenge
no mood
no time
no drive
no determination
just having the urge to watch tv everyday
be in front of the computer for ten hours
listen to songs for the whole day
jus like now in drama
using the com for so long
yesterday i played sudoku for dunno how many times
nowi am feeling that i am a sloth
not using my brain as often
becomin more and more lazy
haiz.....
although my parents never nagged at me to study
but i wanted to
but just no drive
can't get myself going
maybe i can never improve like that?
should be contented that i never deprove
getting first would never ever be me
maybe i should to resign to fate
but after sayin so much
is only i myself to blame

went to drama today
10am to 5pm-sianz~
cause now i in production so we would be in charge of editing the videos
huever his name is said that we need to edit 25 videos in 2 weeks
IS A LOT
we like edit a 10 sec video already took us like an hour
and those videos are at least 30 secs(if i nvr rmb wrongly)
so we die lah!
how i wish i can PON cca
but at least i can pon 4 sessions and i would be having a whale of time at beijing.Haha
too bad monday dont have session.But who cares
During break that time,i played cheat with jean,ching yee,dom and ltr joel oso joined in
play two games and i actually won both of games easily
suprised by my good luck
i like play 10 times cheat and i can only win 1 time
and today i won both.
Maybe thats why i got out of my sleepy state at the ltr part of the day
i knnow i am gloating
LoL
Looking forward to my trip to beijing
13th to 17th of Nov~
can skip 4 sessions of cca
yay!

Sianz...Holidays have started and now i am lazing around.Those teachers gave us homework to do but i just can't make myself to do them.Book reviews...they are such an headache.Newspaper articles?Not really an easier thing either.Zhou1 Ji4 maybe better cause it doesn't require reading.But the sight of those boring papers just puts me off.Dozing off...lying on the table..pushing the paper away...having a strong urge to throw them to my dustbin,haha.I wonder if i carried on this way,would i be able to do well next year?I lost my will to study yet i dare to aim for the top ten at SA1.My results this yeaar really sucked like hell.Thats why i promised myself to strive next year.But in order to do well,i must start preparing now.But i haven't even started doing my homework lahs.I am getting pissed off by myself you know.Once at a point of time,i shouted to myself that i wanted to beat those who once beaten me.I wanted to do better.Although my parents did not reprimand me for my digraceful results,but i wanted more.Maybe i was being too competitive.Then all in my mind now was not studies.It was music,scenes of my favourite korean dramas,and my fanatizes on my trip overseas next week.I somehow lost my focus on studies.


10 Personal goals for myself for 2007:

1)Forcus on my studies.
2)Must go out less often to study.
3)Talk less during lessons(especially when i am such a chatterbox=))
4)Listen to music less often
5)Be online less often
6)Watch less tv(less addictive korean drams i mean!)
7)Read more books instead of comics!
8)Pay 100% attention in class.
9)Stop fantazing on those handsome hunks i have seen on tv
10)Stop thinking about materialistic things

WTH
went to buy books for 2007 wif my father today.Then i wore home clothes.Although i seemed to hear mrs low say last time that we must wear full uniform,but others also wore yesterday.Then F say that i can't go in.i have to wait there cause i was NOT in full uniform.
Is like don't let me in,say earlier lah.What for ask for my class and even see my booklist.
i am not oblidge to let u see ok?
stupid asshole
U thought u are so clever issit?
Who are you to use that kind of impression on me?
Don't be extra lah.
Still say dunno wad if wanna find lighter,mus search everyone's pocket.
Who are you lah?
CAn you just get of of my sight?



Another thing.
When i came in to school that time,i saw the fire engine and some motocycle at the main gate there.Because i cannot go in,so i sat there.I overheard the security guards x< that 5th floor ,block C.This is where the science labs.Issit physics lab?
Shuld be.Haix..school holidays still come back to sch0ol and play wif fire.Naughty huh!=)

Haix.....today is so sian,cooping up at at home,hiding under my blanket.So unlucky,if not for my big mouth,i would not have eaten so much oily food during the weekend and now i have stomach flu that i feel so bloated and i almost feel like vomiting until i don't feel like eating anything.Now i have to swallow all the yucky medicines.Eeeee!so bitter and difficult to swallow.But i have no choice ,must get well AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.Now i sort of banned oily foods,meat,instant noodles as i think i may just throw up when i eat it!Although i am feeling very now,but there is something i can look forward to-THERE IS PE TOMMORROW!yay!