Now in drama
again only one word-sianz~
imgine almost everyday come for SEVEN hours and do almost the same thing
is not that i hate comin for cca
is jus that i am too tired of the all the practices
i can get tired u know
but yet i can learn a lot of things here
although i can slack(thats why i can have time to blog now)
but i rather to have more trainings and i can learn more
i just hate the feeling of being bored
i want to do my holiday assignments
i want to study
i want to improve
i want to become a more outstanding person'
but all the wants i have now seemed to be a real challenge
no mood
no time
no drive
no determination
just having the urge to watch tv everyday
be in front of the computer for ten hours
listen to songs for the whole day
jus like now in drama
using the com for so long
yesterday i played sudoku for dunno how many times
nowi am feeling that i am a sloth
not using my brain as often
becomin more and more lazy
haiz.....
although my parents never nagged at me to study
but i wanted to
but just no drive
can't get myself going
maybe i can never improve like that?
should be contented that i never deprove
getting first would never ever be me
maybe i should to resign to fate
but after sayin so much
is only i myself to blame